I know I don’t say much. But the truth is... I’ve felt almost nothing. Not because I don’t care, but because it was never safe to feel. I learned to survive by staying numb. Maybe that’s the real problem. When I met you, something in me softened. But also something panicked. Because I saw your heart wide open & mine still hiding behind walls I built as a boy. You came close & all I wanted was to stay. But I didn’t know how. Because intimacy brings emotions & emotions were never allowed in my hou